6dpiui

So I'm 6dpiui today. I have absolutely no symptoms, which I'm not necessarily complaining about. These past few days have flown by because I've been busy helping with my friends wedding planning, then doing wedding stuff all day Friday and Saturday. J and I got up early this morning and drove 5 hours to the OBX for our week long vacation. I'm sooo glad I just get to relax this week! I'm exhausted and can use this time to rejuvenate.

I *think* I felt myself ovulate on the day of the IUI. I had some pain in my ute area today as well but other than that, no symptoms. I'm hoping that's a good sign and I'm hoping that having this week of relaxing will help my body do what it's supposed to. The only thing I'm concerned about is that I was jumping up and down a lot yesterday while dancing. I don't know how/why I didn't think about it last night but if I get a BFN this time I'm going to wonder if thats why. I'm probably being overly paranoid but I'm kind of worried about it:(

I think I'm going to start testing on Saturday. That will be 12dpiui so I should have a better idea of what it will be and can let myself down slowly if it is negative. But... I'm all about positive thinking this time. This IS going to work for me this time!

IUI #4 Complete!

I had my 4th IUI this morning. It was easy peasy and even less painful than usual because I remembered to tell the doctor I have a tilted uterus. Usually I forget that part and then (painfully) realize after they go searching for how to insert the catheter:P J's sample wasn't as good this time (12mil, 77% motility) but I know that's because we weren't sure when to have sex. We kept being worried that I'd have to trigger the next night and then mess everything up but guess that shows how much we know:P It only takes 1 though! I had one follie at 19.1 yesterday and 2 around 14mm. I did a double booster of bravelle last night and then triggered.

It was kind of unexpected that I was going to have the IUI today though. I went in yesterday and planned to trigger last night for the IUI on Tuesday. I was hoping that they'd let me go one more day to let the 14s catch up but when they called yesterday afternoon, my body had other plans. Already started ovulating on my own so I got to trigger and come in this morning.

So now I'm in the 2 week wait and go back in for my beta on the 4th. Luckily I have wedding stuff and then a week at the beach to get me through:) Hopefully the relaxing next week will be good for implantation too;) Oh... and it's my birthday on Friday! Happy 27th birthday to meeeee:) Definitely thought I'd be pregnant by now but hopefully I'll get a BFP for my birthday:)

I ordered a Petunia Pickle Bottom bag last week. I've ordered a couple of things in the past from them and just stuck them away in the closet which I'll do with this bag too but I'm hoping I get to use it very soon. The fabric for the bag was discontinued about 2.5 years ago but it's my favorite so I checked to see if they had a larger bag in the same fabric stashed away somewhere (I already have the clutch but it's too tiny to use for a newborn). And... because it was discontinued I got it for a nice discount too:)

Here's a pic:) Love it and can't wait to use it! Until I get my BFP (In 2 weeks;)) I don't plan to buy anything else. :)

1st Follie Check

After 3 days of Bravelle injections I had my first follie check this morning. I'd say it went pretty well. I still have fluid in my ute so hopefully that will go away soon. Doesn't really surprise me since I've been spotting for like a month straight and AF seemed pretty light but I'm not spotting anymore so I don't know what that means. As for my follies, I have 3 in the lead at the moment. One at 14.1mm, one at 13mm and one at 12. So I get to do another 2 nights of Bravelle and then return to the doctor on Thursday morning to check the progress. I hope that the 3 follies grow grow grow! I'll do whatever is needed but I'd love it if the IUI was on Sunday or Monday as opposed to Saturday but I'm not picky. :)

I was reading 999 Reasons to laugh at infertility and I loved this post. I sometimes need to repeat this to myself. All the treatment can overwhelm my life at times but it's so important to remember this:

You are more than your infertility.

You are a wife, a partner, a friend, a lover.

You are a daughter, sister, an aunt, a cousin.

You are a worker, a fur mommy, a smiler, a laugher.

You are a timed intercourse lover, a basal temperature checker, a pregnancy bump spy.

You are a toilet paper inspector, a Doctor Google searcher, an ovulation charter.

You are a fake pregnancy symptomer, a Clomid side effector, a Facebook pregnancy spy.

You are a crier in public places, a hormonal fertility needle injector, a fertility drug addict.

You are hoper, a believer, a person who won’t give up-er.

You are a strong woman.

Infertility does not define you.

IUI #4 Here we come!

I'm sorry I've been a bad blogger and haven't updated recently. I've been crazy busy but with lots of fun stuff. In the midst of it I was able to start my next cycle. I was on BCP for 3 weeks even though a cyst check at 2 weeks revealed that the cyst had shrunk enough to start the next cycle. I went out of town the past 2 weekend so in order to make sure I was around for all the monitoring appts I needed to go to I just stayed on the pill. Finished it last sunday and AF took her time showing up but finally did last thursday. I started 75iu of Bravelle on Saturday (and again sunday and today). Tomorrow is my first follie check. I'm pretty excited/nervous about it. I'm not sure what to expect but I'll take some growth as a good sign:)

I'll try to be better about updating the rest of the cycle but fingers are crossed that by this time next week I'll have either had or will be triggering to have my next IUI:) yay!

Oh... and if I got pregnant this cycle I'd be due on our 4 year anniversary. What an amazing anniversary gift that would be!