Had my beta yesterday for IUI #5 cycle. It was negative. Not really surprised. I had a sliver of hope because of the nausea, tiredness, starvation, hot flashes, etc from earlier in the week but that must all be from the Met. AF started today so I go in on Monday and I'm just praying I don't have any cysts. I'd like to do our final IUI cycle for this year in November and have our IVF consult sometime during that cycle. Then, if that cycle doesn't work, I'd like to start bcp in December so I can be ready to stim right away in January. Can you tell I don't want to waste time?
I haven't cried once since finding out that I didn't get pregnant this time and I don't think I will. I really feel so numb. It's just so routine at this point. It is insane how much medicine I've injected (or swallowed or inserted) into my body in the past year. It's insane how much I have to take again this cycle and if I have to do IVF, the box of meds that's going to arrive on my doorstep scares me. Honestly, I can't wait to just do IVF but the PIO shots scare the hell out of me:P I'm used to the nightly shots in my stomach and pills and suppositories and visits to the RE for U/S and B/W but the PIO shots scare me since I hear they hurt like crazy and your butt is bruised like crazy:P Hopefully I won't have to deal with all that though. This next IUI should work right?? Maybe, possibly, hopefully...
((((huge hugs))))
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