Speedy Cycle!

This cycle has flown by! I went in for my first follie check yesterday (day 6) and I already had a follie at 16mm! I was told to double my dose last night and come in again today. When I went in today it was up to 19mm:) I had a couple other ones but the largest was only 13mm so I think I'm only ending up with one follie this cycle. I got the call this afternoon to do another double dose tonight and then come back in tomorrow morning. My estrogen level was up to 251 today which is awesome. Usually my estrogen is pretty low so I'm happy to see it this high.

Not sure what's in store for tomorrow. I'm assuming I'll trigger tomorrow night for an IUI on Friday (or Thursday if I'm already ovulating). Either way... One quick cycle!

The blessing or curse of this cycle is that I'll know if I'm pregnant by the time Halloween comes around. We're going to a pumpkin carving party as well as to a friends house for trick or treating and I'll be surrounded by adorable kids the entire weekend (ranging from 5 months to 3 years). I'm hoping I'll be pregnant and not have to deal with the feelings of being the only couple there that STILL doesn't have kids... and if I'm not, I hope I can just push that aside and enjoy the weekend.

Fingers crossed!:)

Long time no blog...

Sorry it's been so long since I updated! Well last cycle was a bust. I wasn't too surprised and took it pretty well. 2 days after my beta AF showed up so that was nice since I didn't have to wait too long to get things going again. I went in last Friday for my baseline check and thankfully I didn't have any cysts! It's weird to just be able to start the next cycle right away. I'm so used to delays and forced breaks that it's nice to just keep moving along. The plan is the same for this cycle. Bravelle, Ovidrel, IUI #5, progesterone. Tomorrow is my first follie check after taking Bravelle for 3 nights. Hopefully I have some growing:) Fingers crossed that things go smoothly this cycle.

After getting a negative Beta I was talking to (emailing) a friend about it all and how I just don't understand why this hasn't worked yet. She suggested looking into starting Metformin and possibly doing lap surgery to see if there's anything wrong with my ute or tubes that didn't show up on the HSG. My doctor didn't prescribe metformin initially because I'm not insulin resistant and I responded to clomid. But, since I haven't gotten pregnant yet, I brought it up with him to see if it was worth trying now. He said that it doesn't hurt anything to try so I'm going to see if it does anything. I just want to feel like I'm doing everything possible. I'm not looking forward to the nasty side effects but I'm hoping to lose some weight! As for the lap surgery, I think its a good idea and hate the unknown but at this point J and I aren't willing to have a break cycle for it. We have 2 IUI's left for this year before we switch insurance plans next year. If either of these last 2 IUI's don't work, we'll discuss doing the lap with RE during December since we can't do any treatments that month anyway. Hopefully we won't need to go there though:)

I'll try to be better about updating. September was a crazy busy month for us though. I'm LOVING this fall weather and am looking forward to the Halloween festivities planned... though it will be kid filled which may turn out to be tough to handle if I get BFN this cycle (if I have IUI when I think I will, I'll get beta right around Halloween). Hopefully I'll have great news though!

6dpiui

So I'm 6dpiui today. I have absolutely no symptoms, which I'm not necessarily complaining about. These past few days have flown by because I've been busy helping with my friends wedding planning, then doing wedding stuff all day Friday and Saturday. J and I got up early this morning and drove 5 hours to the OBX for our week long vacation. I'm sooo glad I just get to relax this week! I'm exhausted and can use this time to rejuvenate.

I *think* I felt myself ovulate on the day of the IUI. I had some pain in my ute area today as well but other than that, no symptoms. I'm hoping that's a good sign and I'm hoping that having this week of relaxing will help my body do what it's supposed to. The only thing I'm concerned about is that I was jumping up and down a lot yesterday while dancing. I don't know how/why I didn't think about it last night but if I get a BFN this time I'm going to wonder if thats why. I'm probably being overly paranoid but I'm kind of worried about it:(

I think I'm going to start testing on Saturday. That will be 12dpiui so I should have a better idea of what it will be and can let myself down slowly if it is negative. But... I'm all about positive thinking this time. This IS going to work for me this time!

IUI #4 Complete!

I had my 4th IUI this morning. It was easy peasy and even less painful than usual because I remembered to tell the doctor I have a tilted uterus. Usually I forget that part and then (painfully) realize after they go searching for how to insert the catheter:P J's sample wasn't as good this time (12mil, 77% motility) but I know that's because we weren't sure when to have sex. We kept being worried that I'd have to trigger the next night and then mess everything up but guess that shows how much we know:P It only takes 1 though! I had one follie at 19.1 yesterday and 2 around 14mm. I did a double booster of bravelle last night and then triggered.

It was kind of unexpected that I was going to have the IUI today though. I went in yesterday and planned to trigger last night for the IUI on Tuesday. I was hoping that they'd let me go one more day to let the 14s catch up but when they called yesterday afternoon, my body had other plans. Already started ovulating on my own so I got to trigger and come in this morning.

So now I'm in the 2 week wait and go back in for my beta on the 4th. Luckily I have wedding stuff and then a week at the beach to get me through:) Hopefully the relaxing next week will be good for implantation too;) Oh... and it's my birthday on Friday! Happy 27th birthday to meeeee:) Definitely thought I'd be pregnant by now but hopefully I'll get a BFP for my birthday:)

I ordered a Petunia Pickle Bottom bag last week. I've ordered a couple of things in the past from them and just stuck them away in the closet which I'll do with this bag too but I'm hoping I get to use it very soon. The fabric for the bag was discontinued about 2.5 years ago but it's my favorite so I checked to see if they had a larger bag in the same fabric stashed away somewhere (I already have the clutch but it's too tiny to use for a newborn). And... because it was discontinued I got it for a nice discount too:)

Here's a pic:) Love it and can't wait to use it! Until I get my BFP (In 2 weeks;)) I don't plan to buy anything else. :)

1st Follie Check

After 3 days of Bravelle injections I had my first follie check this morning. I'd say it went pretty well. I still have fluid in my ute so hopefully that will go away soon. Doesn't really surprise me since I've been spotting for like a month straight and AF seemed pretty light but I'm not spotting anymore so I don't know what that means. As for my follies, I have 3 in the lead at the moment. One at 14.1mm, one at 13mm and one at 12. So I get to do another 2 nights of Bravelle and then return to the doctor on Thursday morning to check the progress. I hope that the 3 follies grow grow grow! I'll do whatever is needed but I'd love it if the IUI was on Sunday or Monday as opposed to Saturday but I'm not picky. :)

I was reading 999 Reasons to laugh at infertility and I loved this post. I sometimes need to repeat this to myself. All the treatment can overwhelm my life at times but it's so important to remember this:

You are more than your infertility.

You are a wife, a partner, a friend, a lover.

You are a daughter, sister, an aunt, a cousin.

You are a worker, a fur mommy, a smiler, a laugher.

You are a timed intercourse lover, a basal temperature checker, a pregnancy bump spy.

You are a toilet paper inspector, a Doctor Google searcher, an ovulation charter.

You are a fake pregnancy symptomer, a Clomid side effector, a Facebook pregnancy spy.

You are a crier in public places, a hormonal fertility needle injector, a fertility drug addict.

You are hoper, a believer, a person who won’t give up-er.

You are a strong woman.

Infertility does not define you.

IUI #4 Here we come!

I'm sorry I've been a bad blogger and haven't updated recently. I've been crazy busy but with lots of fun stuff. In the midst of it I was able to start my next cycle. I was on BCP for 3 weeks even though a cyst check at 2 weeks revealed that the cyst had shrunk enough to start the next cycle. I went out of town the past 2 weekend so in order to make sure I was around for all the monitoring appts I needed to go to I just stayed on the pill. Finished it last sunday and AF took her time showing up but finally did last thursday. I started 75iu of Bravelle on Saturday (and again sunday and today). Tomorrow is my first follie check. I'm pretty excited/nervous about it. I'm not sure what to expect but I'll take some growth as a good sign:)

I'll try to be better about updating the rest of the cycle but fingers are crossed that by this time next week I'll have either had or will be triggering to have my next IUI:) yay!

Oh... and if I got pregnant this cycle I'd be due on our 4 year anniversary. What an amazing anniversary gift that would be!

Break Cycle Hell

I'm stuck in limbo but I'm already in my 2nd of 3 weeks of BCP's. The beginning of last week sucked and I just felt depressed and like I didn't want to do anything. As the week went on it got a little better and I'm doing MUCH better now. Still irritated but I've been busy and trying to focus on other things so that helps.

Ironically, one of the things that I've been "distracted" by was the birth of my 2nd cousin. She was born last Thursday so I went to visit her in the hospital, then visited with them on Saturday and then again today. I spent part of today shopping with my cousin to get props so I can do a newborn photo shoot for them next week. Holding that sweet baby girl has been surprisingly comforting. I'm not nearly as jealous or neurotic as I expected to be and I absolutely love being around my cousin and her little girl. I changed the baby today and my aunt commented on how "natural" motherhood came to me. Not the first time I've heard that and it just makes me excited for the day when I actually become a mother myself.

Other than that, I've been in last minute planning stages for my best friends bachelorette party next weekend. I'm now excited to be able to drink as much as I want that weekend. I don't have to worry about awkwardly explaining why I'm not drinking and I don't have to worry about giving myself shots or anything like that that weekend.

I'm excited for next month as well. I feel like it's going to fly by and luckily (as long as all is well at my baseline appt) I'll be able to do the IUI without it interfering with anything. The best part is that I'll have so much going on that the 2ww will be full of distractions! Just have to get there first! I have so many things to look forward to next month! Bachelorette party, visit to OH to visit a lifelong friend, Baby shower (actually excited since I'll get to see family I haven't seen in forever), Best friends wedding, BEACH for a week in OBX!! Awesomeness:)

Oh! And I talked to J about changing our medical coverage for next year. Currently our insurance doesn't cover IVF but I read on J's company's website that they cover 4 IVF rounds. We have to wait until October to see what our medical insurance options are and I'm praying that we find one that actually does cover IVF. Well in talking to J tonight, he's very confident that one will, it's just a matter of signing up for it. That makes me feel MUCH better about this whole thing. I'm semi-confident that one of the next 3 IUI's will work BUT if they don't, knowing that insurance covers IVF will make me a little less upset. Also, if the timing works out, I probably won't have to wait for the insurance to kick in since the IUI cycles/birth control cycle for IVF would fill up the next few months. I'd love to not have to use that but it would be nice to not worry about it.

I apologize if I don't post much in the next couple weeks. I've been pretty busy and with being on BCP there isn't much to update. Hope everyone is doing great and I just want to give a shoutout to all the ladies on the Bump that have gotten their BFP's this month!! Congrats ladies:)